and the countdown has begun....

9 days til we leave for China, 12 days til Chynna is finally in my arms....

Every emotion possible is running through me, happiness, excitement, fear, nervousness, sadness.....I feel like I have a rainbow of emotions. One minute I'll be happily telling you about my baby girl, the next I could be crying and not knowing exactly why. Then I may become fearful about not already being with my little girl, what if she's sick, what if she's already been taken to the orphanage and away from her foster family, is she sad, does she know how much her life is about to change? This then makes me sad for her and for her foster family as I know how much she has been loved by them and I know how hard it is gonna be for the foster family to let her go. Then I get nervous, what if I don't know what to ask the orphanage director, what if I don't make her bottle the way she likes it and she doesn't eat. But after all those emotions, I think, I can do this, I've been preparing for this moment for almost 6 years and finally I will have my Chynna, and the happiness comes back!!

9 days til we leave, and 12 days til she's in my arms!